Talk - /Noun/ or /Verb/.

Do you talk to yourself? I do - it should be normalized really. I should be able to talk to myself in any setting and not get a wtf look - a what are you on look.

But oh well - life is brazy.

When another individual is involved it’s now an ideal talking experience, unno a convo with another being. You get no looks whatsoever - life is normal. Except maybe you are yelling.

Other times they suck, are difficult. Are hard, painful, annoying. Most times now a-days it’s always a wtf moment. You talked/ had a convo and after - all you can Literally think is wtf.

It’s the nice conversations I don’t like - They are the dangerous ones. Cause then with nice convos comes some kind of Connection.

Its an I see you - you see me moment |

It’s a I hear you - you hear me moment |

It’s a that’s why we vibe moment |

Its a we have a mutual understanding moment |

Don’t get me wrong it’s all lovely -That’s how friendships are formed. Romantic relationships are formed. Good Co-worker  - Customer/Seller relationships are formed. Family ties get stronger - better. Any kind of relationship you can think of really.

Every thing it’s all rosy - till one day it’s not. And then you wished you never talked, had any Convo to start with.Cause you would not be in this wtf situation/ moment you have now found yourself.

Your “Friend” is now what you don’t understand. Then you have to “talk” again to fix it or it might just be the end.

Your “Partner” is now what you don’t understand then you have to “talk”  - unno to see where it goes.

My fav one is when y’all don’t even know what y’all are on - especially when feelings start to get involved. But the one thing keeping y’all together is this “talk” / “convo”  -

Its a loop, you talk and talk it’s frustrating, you get tired of talking , you keep talking, till something happens or it’s just the end

Your co- worker - customer relationship is now chaotic. You have to find a new place to buy your shit.

You have to eat lunch alone at work or take a different route to the bathroom. Because the only person you thought you vibed w you can’t understand them anymore. These kinds you don’t even bother trying to “talk” - you just let it go - unno move on.

Family is a tricky one but we all know “talk” can make things absolutely wild or can calm things down but I won’t write down anything about it - It’s all too complicated for my stressed out brain this afternoon.

So I think to myself - What’s the point of talking again? - The point of having a good conversation?

I know there are so many lovely advantages but thats life right - disadvantages are forever present.

But I am tired, I don’t want to talk - I don’t want good now, chaos later.

I don’t want to constantly be in the “enjoy the moment” while simultaneously thinking about the end - cause it sucks.

I hate it - I hate it all - I hate life.

I don’t want to talk -